Bipolar Scotoma – a hidden condition?
So it’s a reasonable leap, not needing much faith, to wonder if Bipolar brings with such a blind spot – an emotional one. Well I’m no clinician or psychiatrist, but for me the answer is an unequivocal yes.
When I am manic, I am utterly convinced I am right and that others are wrong. Worse still, though I know I’m Bipolar and I know all its myriad symptoms, when hypo-manic, I can temporarily convince myself I’m not Bipolar at all, and can hear myself railing at it and being convinced all I have is a shitty old temper and saying to the victim –‘get over it’.
Some psychologists will use the term metaphorically to describe a patient’s inability to see traits others can see, but for me it’s more subtle than that. As I write this, I am calm and rational and to intents and purposes in that flat plane that sits between the two polarities, and I can articulate and easily perceive these traits. So why is it that such rationality vanishes when manic?
And is the $64,000 dollar question!