Bipolar

Bipolar Scotoma – a hidden condition?

 

 

 

 

 

Scotoma– Greek for darkness- is a medical term for a blind spot in the eye. But when I say condition, I should qualify it with the caveat that all mammalian eyes have it. You are just unaware of it.

So it’s a reasonable leap, not needing much faith, to wonder if Bipolar brings with such a blind spot – an emotional one. Well I’m no clinician or psychiatrist, but for me the answer is an unequivocal yes.

When I am manic, I am utterly convinced I am right and that others are wrong. Worse still, though I know I’m Bipolar and I know all its myriad symptoms, when hypo-manic, I can temporarily convince myself I’m not Bipolar at all, and can hear myself railing at it and being convinced all I have is a shitty old temper and saying to the victim –‘get over it’.

Some psychologists will use the term metaphorically to describe a patient’s inability to see traits others can see, but for me it’s more subtle than that. As I write this, I am calm and rational and to intents and purposes in that flat plane that sits between the two polarities, and I can articulate and easily perceive these traits. So why is it that such rationality vanishes when manic?

And is the $64,000 dollar question!

 

 

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2 Responses to “Bipolar Scotoma – a hidden condition?”

  1. On March 14, 2013 at 2:49 am Diane responded with... #

    awaiting the answer to the $64,000 dollar question………..

    • On March 21, 2013 at 8:36 pm carol smith responded with... #

      I read your article on locus of control and I think that being bipolar/manic has everything to do with a LOC that is ever changing as our brain chemicals are ever changing. But I am always doing so much better with an internal LOC. When this illness attacks and I am so very down, my LOC is always external because I cannot fix this depression but maybe he can or it can or she can but it’s never I can with an external LOC. Right at this moment, I have an internal LOC but it takes work to keep it internal.

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